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“𝑀𝑜𝓉𝒾𝓋𝒶𝓉𝒾𝑜𝓃 𝒾𝓈 𝓌𝒽𝒶𝓉 𝑔𝑒𝓉𝓈 𝓎𝑜𝓊 𝓈𝓉𝒶𝓇𝓉𝑒𝒹. 𝐻𝒶𝒷𝒾𝓉 𝒾𝓈 𝓌𝒽𝒶𝓉 𝓀𝑒𝑒𝓅𝓈 𝓎𝑜𝓊 𝑔𝑜𝒾𝓃𝑔.” – 𝒥𝒾𝓂 𝑅𝑜𝒽𝓃

During the entrance interview, I was asked “why nursing?” and I answered “because I want to help people and when I was a child, I was always in hospital because I’m always sick. Nurses took good care of me, and I want to take good care of others to.” That time, I want to be enrolled in nursing school because it’s my dream. My sister is a nurse too and she doesn’t want me to become a nurse like her because of the struggle she passes. Even her friends that are nurses try to stop me or gave me a warning of what I want to be. Then I said to myself if this is for me if I am able to pass. I passed the 3 phases of the entrance exam and I am studying here at Aklan State University with the course of BS in Nursing.

During my first semester, specifically in my first week, some teachers asked us again why we choose to nurse. That time I able to answers those questions because of my desire to be in this course. At first, I enjoyed every moment because I was inspired to learn at that time and I have some of my HS friends who took this course too. We manage to pass the first sem with Dean’s lister, and we were happy at that time.

In the second semester, we’re reshuffled, and some of my friends are no longer my classmates. As time goes by, many deadlines, surprise quizzes, and return demos strike us. At this point, I lost the desire to be a nurse because of the struggles I’ve been to. I was reminded of my sister’s advice before I enrolled in this course. But I don’t want to shift because this is the path I’ve already chosen and again I said to myself self “No turning back, be responsible in your choice!”. I still managed to pass this course but at this point, I don’t know if I’m still happy.

I don’t know what was the reason for losing my desire of being a nurse, maybe it’s because of the struggle of being a student, or maybe now I know the reality of being a nurse. Being a nurse is not that easy because you are tasked to take good care of different types of people, no matter who they are or what kind of attitude they have. Here in the Philippines, health workers are not a priority, so some nurses are just having their experience here at work so that they can work abroad. So the ratio of nurses to patients does not balance. Some of the nurses are having 1 is to 40 patient, maybe this reality takes away all my desire.

Now, I am already in 2nd year, the second semester. Yeah, I’m still here in this course (no turning back). Maybe some of us experience what I’ve experienced, losing the desire for what we want to be. Being a student is not that easy, I just realized that the reason why I’m here never lost. It was just the reasons that were covered by the emotions and struggles that I’m facing. So here is a quote that everyone will understand “Your vision of where or what you want to be is the greatest asset you have. Without having a goal it’s difficult to score.” – Paul Arden. If you’re having this problem right now, take a rest and go back to your past self and ask him/her why you chose this course and be reminded and be inspired again. Sometimes, emotions can cover our positive thinking, so take a deep breath, relax and just enjoy what you’re doing. If you fail, just think that it’s part of life to give you a lesson.

“Your vision of where or what you want to be is the greatest asset you have. Without having a goal it’s difficult to score.”

– Paul Arden